Music of the moment

I typically listen to audio books in the car, but I ran out and haven't quite hooked up my new library situation. So I've been listening to the radio, and getting bored. Decided to make a playlist in traffic yesterday:

Basket Case - Sara Bareilles
Born this Way- Glee Cast
Buenos Aires - Glee Cast
Creepin' In- Norah Jones
Doo Wop (That Thing) - Lauryn Hill
The Edge of Glory - Lady Gaga
Extraordinary - Mandy Moore
Fairytale (Live) - Sara Bareilles
Forget about the Boy - Thoroughly Modern Millie
Forget You- Glee Cast
Gimme Gimme - Thouroughly Modern Millie
Gonna Get Over You - Sara Bareilles
Good Girl- Carrie Underwood
Haven't Met You Yet - Michael Buble
I Believe - Stevie Wonder
I Believe in a Thing Called Love- The Darkness
I wanna Dance with Somebody - Glee cast
I'm Not that Girl - Julia Murney
I've Got a Dream - Tangled
In the Heights - In the Heights
It Won't Be Long Now- In the Heights
Lights - Ellie Goulding
Listen - Glee Cast
Maybe This Time - Glee Cast
Nobody Wants to be Lonely - Ricky Martin & Christina Aguilera
Not for the Life of Me- Thoroughly Modern Millie
Not Ur Girl- Katharine McPhee
One Woman Army- Laura Glyda Band
Pacienca y Fe- In the Heights
Real Life Fairytale- Plumb
Run - Matt Nathanson & Jennifer Nettles
Run the World - Glee cast
Shake Senora - Pitbull
So Much Better- Bailey Hanks
Stronger - Britney Spears
Stronger - Kelly Clarkson
Taking Chances - Glee cast
That's It, I Quit, I'm Moving On - Adele
Who Says- Selena Gomez
Most of the songs appeal to my current state of break up grief, but some of them are just fun to sing/dance to.

Unfinished diaries

I used to start a new journal or diary every so often. I'd commit for a few days, then forget. Most of those entries were written during break ups or something equally traumatizing, so I hate to go back and read them. I'm hoping both of those things don't continue with this blog.

Anyway, I've been busy. School started and I started volunteering tonight. Even though I've been keeping busy, I can still get lonely sometimes. It still seems surreal to me that I live in this apartment by myself. I am settling in better. I'm currently doing laundry in the basement. I haven't needed quarters to do laundry in forever. Such is the life of a single girl!

Weird things

I noticed just now that the only person I've spoken to today was the extra cheerful cashier at Boloco. I'm a pretty talkative person, but since I've been home alone all morning, I haven't used my voice. This is just a strange thing I'll have to get used to.

I'm still adjusting to being on my own schedule and not having to check ok with anyone.

I know I'll adjust but sometimes the whole thing is weird to me.

When school parallels life it is weird

One of the classes I'm taking this semester is called Cultural aspects of international business. Last night was our first meeting. As part of class, our professor walked us through the steps of obtaining an international assignment, adjusting to it, then adjusting to home. His language was vague enough that I couldn't help but find parallels to leaving a long term relationship.

It is an adventure. One I entered reluctantly, but entered all the same. Once one arrives in the place of their foreign adventure, there is a child like dependence that will develop, mostly due to language gaps. Now that I'm in my adjustment period I'm trying to avoid the people that are discouraging and put up walls, and the "wonderful
magicians" that befriend you and guide you through the way.

Maybe it was my stress level or maybe it was my period, but I was almost tearing up. I'm still identifying who my threshold guardians are and who are my true magical friends. Unfortunately, we are all speaking English and it's harder to distinguish between the two. Like most ex-pats, I'm hoping to overcome the odds and be successful in settling in. At the very least, I should be getting tips from this class.

I don't know about anyone else, but being smacked across the face by another way of looking at whatever is bothering you, seems to put things into perspective.

Here's to new adventures.

Quotes of the moment

"You can't reach for anything new if your hands are full of yesterday's junk."- Louise Smith

"You think Gloria Steinham got arrested and sat in a jail cell so you could act like a little bitch?!" - Chelsea Handler in This Means War (might never leave my inspirational quote rotation)

"And I tell myself to let this story end. That my heart will rest in someone else's hand.....I'll be alright. Just not tonight, but someday....And I'm not the girl I intend to be. But I dare you darlin just you wait and see. But this time not for you but for me"- Sara Bareilles "gonna get over you"

First night out

I've decided to say yes to as many invitations as possible for a while. My friend won a happy hour at a tequila bar: $3 margaritas & modelos, $1 tacos. Not a tough sell. It was fun to be out with people I didn't know well but were super talkative and social like
me.

Was mostly shoved in a corner the whole time, but did strike up a conversation with two nice guys. It's funny that I'm a little fearless about talking to strangers, this could work to
my advantage. :-)

See outfit choice, I'm not a tough sell either haha

Ok so now what

Full disclosure: this is my 3rd attempt at blogging.

A week ago, I moved out of the house I shared in the suburbs with my long term boyfriend. After nearly five years in that house and plenty of boxes to unpack, I hope I got what I needed.

Living alone has been interesting. I'm happy to not have to be considerate of someone else's schedule or design tastes. However, it's a strange adjustment to not have to check in with someone. I cried the first day I drove home from work. My parents, sister, and close friends have been wonderful, but it will be nice to not have to be worried about so much.

So after I found out this week that T had moved on (at least physically) last weekend and seemed not to have remorse, I decided that there was no hope of him growing up, snapping out of it and getting back together with me. I had an epic meltdown when I found out. I've had nothing but positive omens and good signs that this decision to leave was right, but I suppose it takes something awful to be 100% sure.

So not sure exactly where I'm going with this blog, but I moved back into the city and am trying to fill my schedule back up. This could be comical or inspiring, not that I'm sure anyone will read it.